Sunday, 23 March 2008

Cycle of Life




This is something I wrote on the evening 25 May 2006, two day before my wedding, outside in the garden enjoying dinner at twilight with my folks from back home. Two years on, I still feel the same way about all life has to offer, all that life throws at us... There are days I stumble, days I fall and I feel like I will never be able to get up again, days when I cry rivers... When I do dry the tears away, and finally muster the strength to get up, this is what I stil remind myself of.




As I sit here in the blue-tinted semi-darkness, listening to the melodies of nocturnal birds chirping triumphantly in the face of the night, the breeze, the distant thunder of traffic; I look up and say a little prayer for being here, now, in this very moment, being me - in my own skin.

As I listen to the distant remembrances from the sepia pages of the manuscripts of my memories, locked deep down in the caskets of the memory, I contemplate. Life... love... heartache... death... pain... 'All that the flesh is heir to'... What remains of these but the faint tracks in the dusty field of memories?

As the night clouds gentyly drifting in the sapphire sky, all that does come, indeed will pass. This life, too, shall pass in due course. Like the summer sun that fades away into the gloom of dusky autumn skies. Like the endless floods of fall, the bitter bite of winter, like the silent, stealthy rise the daffodils soon after...

I look to a time - in the dreamy distance - when I will hold my little girl in my arms and tell her nothing in this life is worth her precious pearls of tears. Only death perhaps - and that, the tears won't wash away regardless.















11 comments:

Fo said...

WOW! this so beautiful...nd touching...life show cycles!

Overwhelmed Naija Babe said...

Absolutely beautiful... i've blog missed you darling.. how u doing?

cinnamonqueen said...

@Fo - thanks hun, glad you like it. How have you been?

@Overwhelmed - I have blog-missed you too babe. I promise to make the effort now that I am on a two week hols! :)

Tears said...

was here....nice post >>>

Fo said...

m gr8, was stressd out lil, but now am JUST fine...*grins

Naija said...

Thanks for adding me to your blog, CQ. I returned the kind gesture. :)

Zephi Fahrenheit said...

*cyber hug*

I have missed you deeply...seriously..I checked your blog today routinely and was jilted when I saw a post..i was not even expecting it.. "perception,judgemet..." had greeted me each time I came here..

life is crazy, very fickle..
while I was driving to class i briefly thought "I am not afraid of death..life is useless anyways.its just a cycle of the same ol shit..happineess stays briefly and gives way for sadness and tears and then hapiness is back again, the feelings of uncertainity and sometimes fear"....and then I sighed

pls tell me your staying and your not leaving us again?

cinnamonqueen said...

@Naija - which Naija? I cannot get to your blog when I click on your name :( Help!

@Zephi sweetie, I have missed my blog family too. And I know it has been ages, I do apologise. I am here to stay but you can also catch me on www.bhfmagazine.com these days. :)

Today's ranting said...

Nice write up! Hmmmm beautifylly written.

Ivanaa said...

I contemplate. Life... love... heartache... death... pain... 'All that the flesh is heir to'...
- iy's amazing how it doesn't matter who we are ... we are all susceptible to the same things!

Beautifully written as usual!

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